Bubbalino: Quiet Night In....

It's Friday night. 7.59pm. I'm mindful of the fact that it's been over a month since I last wrote. I haven't had time for much lately. But hey, what's new.

I don't even have anything specific to blog about tonight. I wish I was sitting here with some beautiful music on low (think Adele's new album), a glass of Pinot to my right, a scented candle filling the night air with some intoxicating aroma and the blaze of the fire in my periphery.

Well, that's not my current scene, but the chocolate muffins in the oven do smell pretty good and the fire is burning brightly.

My Baby Boy just turned 6 months and I can't believe how fast my life seems to be going. I just want to press pause. My big girl is almost 2 and a half and come the end of this year (less than 6 months away now that we're passed the shortest day), I will be closer to 40 than 30. Sheeeeeeeeesh. I'd like to scream right there.

I find myself wishing lately that I had some way of capturing everything concerning my babies more succinctly. Now that Miss 2 is a talking machine, I wish I had a dictaphone attached to my person at all times, so that I could press record at any moment that she comes out with something hilarious - which is most of the day! Try as I might, even come the end of the day I can't remember all the little things to tell her Daddy when he walks in the door.

I remember when she was small and he would come home and I'd rush to the computer to show him a video of something cute she'd done that day. But he didn't want to watch it, he wanted to play with her: here and now. Maybe I need to live more in the moment too. I'm just kind of scared that I'll forget these magical moments if I don't grasp them tightly. Sometimes I just want to keep my babies small and gorgeous because I find it hard to believe they could possibly get any more so... I guess that's the beauty of being a parent - to me they will always be more so!

I try to keep a 'journal' of sorts on their milestones and special memories, but it's never up to date enough. I think I just need to let go of the trying to hold on so tight to it and ride with it. Besides, how did the generations before us that didn't have all this technology do it? They just did and I guess the truth is that the more time we are caught up with technology and 'capturing' it, is less time actually spent with our child.

Oooooh Adele's new single just came on Juice TV so I'm going to log off - and go read my new magazine, perhaps with a 'Sultry Chocolate Muffin' - seriously, that is the name of this Chocolate Cake recipe. Let me know if you want it. It's THE BEST chocolate cake recipe ever - and I don't even like Chocolate cake!

These are a couple of the little nooks I wish I could climb into right now with said magazine and muffin.